Has anyone misplaced their faith? I hate to say lost, because I don't know that it's ever truly gone. If you believe, I feel, even in moments of "non-belief", your faith is still deep down pushing you on.
Although I could be wrong.
This year seems never-ending. The beginning has been a blur of one issue or problem after another. It's been struggles with one of my children and I feel my choices are pushing her farther from me. But at the same time, I feel I'm failing as a parent to allow her to continue the path she's been on.
On top of everything, I've been tired. A lot. I guess I'm just getting older and I can't manage like I did.
The move? Well the kids love the new home, but we're not settled yet. And even a brand new home is turning into one unexpected expense after another. I really thought they weren't supposed to do that.
2013 was a rough year. I had told myself over and over 2014 would be so much better.
So far? No dice.
I gave up my faith years ago. For a very long time. The last few years, it's been close, even when I had tried to act like it wasn't there.
Now, I'm wondering just what to think. Is it leaving me again? Am I on the wrong path?